folks have asked me if I've stopped writing my
Musings. Nope. Just lagging behind in my
list of things to do. I'm still dragging my
feet on getting my tax information together, for
example. But, it's always good to learn that
people actually read what I write, so I appreciate
the subtle reminder to get cracking!
I'm on the subject of being backlogged with
responsibilities, let me just stay there a while.
It seems that everyone I'm bumping into these days
is experiencing a higher degree of stress, feeling
behind in work and chores, and burning the
proverbial candle from both ends. Speaking
personally, at 34 weeks and 5 days pregnant, I'm
anxiously awaiting that supposed "nesting instinct"
to kick in, where I develop the energy, stamina, and
super human abilities to accomplish EVERYTHING I've
been wanting to get done over the last months.
Not just wanting to get done, but actually
needing to get done. You know, all that
stuff that haunts us in our sleep or gets jarred
back to the front our brains while we're showering.
seem to you that the to-do list takes on the
proportion of the number Pi... just rattles on and
on? I find myself crying as I'm engaged in
some mundane chore, that little kid kind of cry that
comes from being over-tired, over-stimulated, and
over-whelmed. I just want to hold my breath
until I'm blue and say NO MORE! (Of course,
I'm sure pregnancy hormones play some small part in
all of this.)
the midst of all my whining, I hear the message for
me. Most recently, it came in a Sunday school
lesson. We're studying the Ten Commandments,
and our lesson was on keeping the Sabbath. The
gist of the message for me was this: if I spend all
my time toiling, laboring, striving, and don't take
a day off to rest, then my personal identification
becomes skewed. My life becomes about what I
have accomplished, rather than about who I am, and,
more importantly, whose I am. The
result, then, becomes a shift in worship... a shift
from worshiping God to worshiping myself and my own
easy. We spent a good deal of time after the
lesson talking as a group about how we do it... how
is it possible to fit all the stuff of life into 6
days and rest on the 7th. Yes, yes, I know,
God created the whole world in 6 days, so surely we
can finish that memo at work and get the laundry
done, right? But we're not God (as much as we
might like to think we are), and we find ourselves
stuck in the mire, bogged down by seemingly
never-ending responsibility. Folks are relying
upon us to complete our tasks.
do we do? I don't know. But I do
know from personal experience that I felt my closest
to God and at my most peaceful existence when I took
a bold leap away from the societal idea of the
"norm." In that place, I found more energy,
more creativity, and more joy than I'd felt before.
In that place, God was God, and I was God's child
who listened and followed where led. Ahh, such
guess the word for me today is to remember the
Sabbath, even if I have to baby-step my way hour by
hour until I can make Sabbath out of an entire day.
It sure beats holding my breath until I'm blue.
Grace and peace
to you as you journey.
Yours in Christ,